Candida Symptoms Due to Past Childhood Trauma
I knew I had severe Candida symptoms, like overgrowth before working with Elicia. I had bloating, trouble losing weight, and a food fixation among other things. My naturopath confirmed that it was Candida, and in our first meeting, she said, "Just so you know... Candida is very linked to childhood trauma." I had never heard this before- so I Googled: Candida childhood trauma, and up popped Elicia's website.
I got a really good feeling from her site. After watching a few of her videos I suddenly began to realize that some of the things that I have accepted as "realities" in my life were actually just symptoms of Candida, and repressed anger. Nightmares, mood swings, angry outbursts, self-consciousness, perfectionism and neuroses... These things aren't just part of "Eliza's life" like I had thought. They were symptoms that could be cured with some seriously hard but rewarding work.
At first I was really scared. I would skim around the big "Cause" issues with all my little "Effect" issues. I was afraid to open up and really bare my soul. But then I quickly learned that I could trust Elicia- that I could cry in front of her, be angry around her, and talk about my fears around her. Elicia provides a safe space to feel the shit storm. She is a perfect balance of loving and supportive, AND empathic (I can't express in words how grateful I am for empathic listening- for somebody to sit with me in my moments of pain instead of giving advice or telling me to "cheer up"), AND she's great at tough love: she knows that one of my defense mechanisms, or a way that I "hide", is by playing the class clown and being "funny". She sees beyond my bullshit. 🙂
Physical improvements of Candida Symptoms:
No bloating unless I eat something I'm allergic to. I've lost 5 lbs from the diet, and how it sped up my metabolism. Weaker cravings for sugar. Also I'm just as passionate about food as I ever was, but the fixation/obsession has significantly decreased. I'm really stopping when I'm full. No yeast infections. Improved libido. Still working on the irregular periods, but my naturopath says it's okay that I'm spotting so much, because it's indicative of a heavy detox still going on. Also my mercury toxicity levels have plummeted, and I no longer have parasites! I no longer eat a strict candida diet- I go out and eat and enjoy, but in my home, I stick to a stage 2 candida diet. So 80% of my meals are still candida-free!
It took me awhile to open up in the group calls because I wasn't sure how far to go, how open I should be. At first it was hard for me not to compare myself to the others: "wow she's having a really good week, so maybe now's not a good time to mention how difficult this is for me, or that I had a donut on my trip." But more and more I felt like it was okay to be honest about how shitty some weeks were.
The calls are always more productive when I come to the table with struggles. Everyone on the calls are very supportive, and they've all been there themselves. Nobody gets shamed for slipping on the diet, or for having a week where they just did not manage to do what they needed to do in order to heal. Just seeing people nod their heads when I'm describing something difficult was enough to encourage me to share even more.
Top 3 non-physical improvements:
- I’m kinder to myself when I’m not having a “together” day- I’m not living so rigidly by my own rules.
- My intuition is emerging because it’s coming from a place of loving and protecting myself.
- I can communicate my needs more easily. Saying “No” is easier than it was before.
The MOST important thing I learned is that I cannot THINK about my feelings, I have to feel them. That's what therapy is for. And therapy is great! But while therapy gave me clarity on WHY I was acting this way, it did not show me HOW to move on. I used to think that bashing a pillow was childish. Now I absolutely see it for what it is: a vessel to physically push anger through my body, so it gets unstuck. The anger work was the most useful part of this program…but it's hard to say that because the empathic listening I received was invaluable as well. It was a true gift that is so hard to find in my current life circumstances (which I am mindfully changing one day at a time).
This program is for you brave souls who are ready for a MONUMENTAL change. Elicia is the most compassionate, supportive, loving person that you could ever call on for this courageous journey."
~ Eliza xo